The Mirror Every Creative Has to Face Eventually
Why the hardest reflection is often the most necessary one
I’m unlearning the idea that over giving is love.
That if I give enough. If I stayed available enough. If I made myself useful enough to the people around me, I would earn the connection I was so hungry for.
I thought I was being generous. I thought I was being a good creative collaborator, a good friend, a good partner.
What I was actually doing was signaling that I did not believe I was worthy of connection unless I was useful.
That trauma, as most do, started in childhood when I was two years old.
My parents got divorced and my psyche was imprinted with the idea that love was conditional and had to be secured.
That the people closest to you could leave. That safety was not a given, it was something you had to work for.
Even though I started to become aware of that abandoment wound as I did shadow work, I had no idea how deep it went.
It just looked like generosity. It looked like being the one who always showed up, always gave more, always made room. But underneath it was a small child still trying to make sure no one left.
Those of us with big hearts like to think that everyone has your best interest at heart and that it’s safe to be open all the time.
Even Jesus had strong boundaries and knew that even though we are all children of God, we are all in different relationship with the truth of who we are.
He had an inner circle (his disciples), the people he served (his community), and the people he openly opposed (pharisees and sadducees) because they were constantly trying to entrap him.
It doesn’t matter how pure you are or what your intention is, you will meet opposition.
Learning how to interact and respond to all types of reflections is a great opportunity to develop the Self.
Why This Matters for Every Creative
Here is the thing nobody tells you when you are gifted.
Creativity is not something you manufacture through effort. It moves through you.
It comes from the same Source that made everything, and it moves through each of us differently, depending on the vessel we have built to receive it.
Some people are born with an unusually clear channel. Some people spend a lifetime widening theirs. Either way, once your gift becomes visible, it becomes valuable to other people.
And value without boundaries becomes a resource. Something to be used and exploited.
This is not a cynical statement about human nature. It is simply a reality every creative eventually has to face.
If you have not done the work to know your own worth, you will not know how to protect your gift, and the people around you will only value it to the degree that you do.
The Reflection Is the Teacher
I used to feel angry when people took more than they gave. I used to feel like a victim of other people’s selfishness.
But shadow work asks something harder of you. It asks you to look at what you are attracting and ask what it is reflecting back.
Over giving does not happen to you by accident. It happens because some part of you is still trying to prove you deserve to be loved.
The people who take advantage of that are not the root problem. They are the mirror.
And once you can see the reflection clearly, something shifts. You stop needing to blame the mirror for showing you your own face. You can actually thank it.
If you are still feeling anything other than gratitude toward a hard relationship or a hard season, that is usually the sign there is still integration left to do.
That does not mean staying in situations that drain you. It means understanding why you were available to be drained in the first place, so you are not building the same dynamic again with someone new.
Gentrification of the Soul
How does this show up the real world? In society, not just interpersonal relationships…let’s look at gentrification and how it reflects the exploitation of creative energy.
Gentrification starts with creatives. Early in life, we’re often broke, and we’re looking for places we can afford rent.
We move into an impoverished neighborhood we can afford, and we bring life force with us.
Art. Culture. Vibrancy. And that life force is what makes the neighborhood desirable.
Property values rise. And the very people who brought the life force in the first place get priced out and pushed to the margins.
This is the blueprint for what happens to creative energy everywhere, not just in real estate.
Someone with a genuine gift infuses a space, a brand, a relationship, an industry, with life. And if that person has not learned to protect what they are generating, the people around them absorb the value and the creative gets pushed out of their own creation.
This is the difference between creators and consumers. Between life enhancing intention and parasitic energy.
It is not about villainizing people who take. It is about recognizing the pattern so you stop the cycle of disrespect and extraction.
What the Ones Who Made It Have in Common
If you study the creatives who were exploited early and came out the other side stronger, a pattern emerges. It is never that the exploitation did not happen. It is what they did with it.
Michael Jackson had his gift recognized and used by people around him from the time he was a child. In the 80s after the blockbuster success of Thriller, his wealth allowed him to purchase the Beatles catalog, eventually holding a stake in a massive share of the music industry itself. The child whose gift was taken became the adult who owned the infrastructure.
Ye lost his independence inside a corporate partnership that no longer served him, and the exit was public and costly.
What came out the other side was full ownership of his own name and his own creative direction, on his own terms.
He remerged from being cancelled with a new album and put on the biggest shows of his life on top of the world.
Taylor Swift had her original catalog sold without her control. Instead of staying a victim of that transaction, she used her own creative gift to respond.
She re-recorded the music herself, and her audience showed up in force because they wanted to see her win.
What followed was her becoming the most streamed artist on Spotify of all time, and the Eras Tour becoming the highest grossing tour in history.
None of them were spared the exploitation. All of them used the experience as fuel to build something the original exploitation could never touch again.
The Invitation
Whatever is challenging you right now inside your creative life is not there to punish you. It is there to build the parts of you that are not strong enough yet to hold what you are being called to carry.
You may be playing different roles at different points in this process.
Sometimes you are the pure giver. Sometimes you are the sage. Sometimes you have to become the fierce protector of your own gift.
All of these are legitimate expressions of the same Source moving through you. None of them make you less spiritual or less generous. They make you a clear vessel instead of an open door.
Your creative energy was never meant to be free for the taking. It was meant to move through a vessel strong enough to direct it well.
Building that strength is not selfish. It is the only way the gift survives long enough to reach the people it was meant for.
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In service and celebration, Dijon
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